I have a confession. I sat yesterday and just read and ate. That's it. That is all I did. I basically read and waited around until it was appropriate for me to eat again.
And let me tell you, it was perfect.
My sister and I were talking about it. My family leads incredibly busy lives. I sometimes wonder why we do. My parents both have busy jobs, my sister is working two jobs during her summer, and during the school year it seemed like I was signed up for every extracurricular possible. To be honest, it's really difficult for us to relax. As in, it takes a couple days for us to get it to work.
But yesterday? It was so good. I didn't feel any pressure to do anything, for once. I didn't run (even though I was supposed to). I didn't clean (even though I could have done a lot. Ok, I did do the dishes). I didn't try to learn another language or start a charity. I just sat and read. I checked out a lot of classics, but to be honest I just read two romance novels. And it was perfect.
This summer has been really difficult for me. I don't have much going on, and apparently you need experience to get a job that requires no experience. I'm in a weird transition and I don't have a defined 'I am' statement anymore. Yeah, I registered for college (that was a weird experience), but I'm not in high school anymore. I'm not in college. I don't have a defined role. I have to rework my identity.
Also, graduating from high school made me feel much older than any of my birthdays did. Suddenly I can say, "when I was in high school," and it's a legitimate statement. This summer seems like a never ending stretch of hot days with an irregular schedule. Because I used to be in high school.
Anyway, maybe I'll run and clean today. We'll see. ;)
xo. Elise
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